Depression

An update

Time for another update. Today was quite a daunting day. I had a new experience with visiting Job center plus to sign up for Job Seekers Allowance and to seek further help on offer. I this afternoon had another doctors appointment.

As revealed in ‘It’s a sad day’ I recently had to close my business of 14 years. At 35, this is my first time being unemployed. I have always been self-employed apart from my voluntary positions. Although I naturally felt a little shame, I am entitled to claim Job seekers, I have always paid my tax and business VAT. I do hope however, that it is short lived.

The advisor was very reassuring and calming. Not a jobsworth at all. She explained all my options and even stated that I will not be out of work for long, in her opinion. I do have good business experience as well as fundraising, marketing and web consultancy (wordpress based).

Despite it only being a week of being unemployed, I have already sent off 4 applications for work and one is looking encouraging. I have got to phase two of the application process. At this point in time, I can be a bit picky with the jobs I am applying for. After such stress, I am seeking work that will bring job satisfaction.

In regards to doctors, I have increased my dosage. I am now on 150mg of a possible 200mg of Sertraline. I have also spoken to him about my lack of eating.

I have gone from being a foodie and someone who used food for comfort, to someone with no desire to eat and even a hatred of food and pressure to eat. We are now monitoring my weight, I am down to 14 stone 7lb, which is not crucial at this point but not far off being underweight for my height.

It is something I am trying to get my head around. It is new to me and the biggest thing I cannot cope with at the moment. I may have however, worked out the trigger but I won’t share this just yet, in case I am wrong.

If I have not improved by the time I next see the doctor, it will be further help required.

2 comments

  1. Bob Stoner

    I’m praying for you, the right job and healing. You are such an inspiration for those at StreetSource!

    1. Stephen Linden-Wyatt

      Thank you so much Bob, hope all is well with you all.

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